leaving leaving leaving.

i woke up and checked my phone.
realizing that there's 7 unread messages.
though, i didn't bother to read em' at the nick of the time.
i brushed my teeth, washed my face, then dived into bed.
i then took over my phone, and start reading messages.
i saw a message from somebody.

message content as below:
> Going le. Bye.

i was shocked. i stunted.
then, i texted him.

> Going whr? **?

i called to check if his number were still available.
surprisingly, i don't hear no freaking digi sexay girl talking to me.
it's still available!

he then replied.
> No credit call you.
> Home.

i thought he were just going back to his HOUSE.
but not SOMEWHERE. i felt reliefed.
> Nvm. Just checking if you're still available. Hahas. I'll call you l8r k?

his replied once again stunted me.
> I'm boarding soon.
FCUK YOU BOY THAT AIN'T NO "HOME" OF YOURS!
> Can i call now?

he replied.
> anything.

my credit weren't enough for us to talk.
i were nervous. i searched for my reload card like mad.
> Shit. Wait. Oh god i peng kin drawer for rl card

the reload card seemed no where to be found.
i rushed down and called him with my house phone.
with my parents' beside me, as well siblings.
but gah, i couldn't be bothered anymore.

we talked on the phone.
*inputs lame conversation.*

he said he gotta go in already.
i said goodbye and he just put down the phone.
WITHOUT EVEN A GOODBYE.
you beware you beware you beware.

i sheded my tears.
clicked on Internet Explorer,
searched for a picture,
then typed this post.

i thought to myself:
why could i be so careless.
he said one week. one week meaning ONE WEEK.
seven days! why didn't i pay attention to the date?
why. why am i so useless? crap.
this time, i thought i could have seen him. after so long.
the last time i met him was 20th June 2009.
which was so so so so so long ago.
and we last spoken on phone 8 days ago.
during that conversation,
he said maybe we could meet up at Taman Sahabat.
i really really thought i could have seen him.

how are you, boy? grew taller?
did skipping meals made you thinner?
when you already ARE so freaking thin and couldn't afford to lose any weight anymore?
i thought i could have passed you the original copy of that poem.
those of words from my heart, although my handwriting is fugly,
unlike your handwriting which is apparently nicer than mine.
i.. i perhaps i'll mail it to you or something when i'm free, is that owhkay?

and to those who went to school that day,
count your blessings cause you guys were just LUCKY.
bluek bluek bluek bluek bluek bluek bluek.

sighs. why am i so useless.
sighs.
sighs.

{untitled}

远方是思念
也是牵挂
我在牵挂与思念的这头
而思念与牵挂那头
希望有你

一个人在这样的环境
要自己努力坚强一点
要记得你是家人的骄傲
要记得你是朋友的眷念
要记得你是欣怡的牵挂

就算挑战很频繁
就算挫折数不尽
只要鼓起勇气振作一点
成功离你不会太遥远

就算生活很艰苦
就算家乡很遥远
只要彼此都懂得珍惜想念
重逢的日子并不会太远

by the way, this one ain't the one i've mentioned.
i wrote this one right now.
i'll mail to you that one or something.
not gonna post it up here.

SIM POR SHIEN,
MOJO JOJO,
MISS YOU.
BUHBYES.

signing off. tata.